Happy new me [again]

Today, I have a date w/ my friends to cook Korean food. 2 days ago, I felt so elated. But from yesterday, so many things have made me be mad. Wasted money for very very stupid things. Since I have earn my own money, I have known the feeling which is called “regret”. But I can’t stop spending money for Highland, GJ’s or somethings like that, can’t stop shopping… they’r my habits. I can’t find the way to learn to economize. I wasted all money I earned & now I feel very very repent. From now on, I will learn the way how to save my money to useful things for me. My sweetie told me that he will hate me & don’t meet me 4 a week if I keep wasting my money like that. I’m scared. OK! I will, ‘cuz of u.

6:30pm, Py & me called taxi to go to a hotel, the place where my friend work in here. He’s a receptionist. Py & me talked too much & we’r fun. Cooking, talking, joking, kicking, bla bla bla… but when we came back home. I was sad. I don’t know the reason why. I admit & recognize my heart can’t beat normally. So many kind of heartbeats & feelings w/ so many guys. I can like a guy & hate him immediately. I stayed on taxi, didn’t say anything, juz looked at outside. Empty. Transports kept drifting & I kept being empty. Feelings, thoughts, images kept going adrift. I saw me of February 14^th, 2008. Stayed on taxi like that, looked out side, all alone, but I felt so happy ‘cuz I know I have a person who luv me so much & he's missing me,too although we’r so far apart, but our heart always direct to each other. Sum up, I miss the person in my drawer so much today.

Darling, don’t be mad & think I’m not loyal. I’m ur girlfriend but nobody can’t supersede his place in my heart. I luv u but it doesn’t mean I have to forget my own beautiful memories. Juz have to know, I’m urs, now & I luv u. Juz wait to weekend to meet u. ILUSM.