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Đăng ngày: 16:26 28-11-2009
Grandpa. It has been 16 years since you left me. I miss you so much. Do you know that? I wish you can be by my side, talk to me, care for me, and told me what I should do.
I am standing between two paths, so hard to make decision. If you were here, I could tell and share with you everything. I feel sorry and regret. I know it is very stupid, but if that day I wore the white piece of cloth, perhaps you would not leave me. I am living, but my life is just the mixture of loneliness, depression, and failure. People admire me because I seem to have everything that they wish for, but I got the feeling of emptiness in my heart. That is fate, fate for you to leave me, fate for me to be a loser in the cycle of life, fate for me to fail in the game of love, and fate for everyone who are disappointed because of me and my irresolution.
Sometimes I find happiness in the memories of the past. People said that I should not look back and have to keep moving forward. I cannot. I mean I cannot handle myself not to think about the previous time. I know that I hurt many people, and what I am receiving now is retribution from what I did. There are several times I asked myself that if I could go back to the past, I would change what I did or not. I have already have the answer, but it has no meaning now. I adroitly hid all the true feelings in my heart so that no one could know, but I still want them to know. It is impossible, is not it?
I still remember, and I do not even know how cannot I forget, that you used to hold me in your hand when I was just a little kid and said that I am an angel in your heart. Yes, I used to be an angel, an angel in your and many other people's eyes, but this angel just brought sadness and nothing else.
Grandpa! I know that some day I will see you again, and that is also the end of my life. I wonder how it will be. Maybe at that time I will be too old to remember all the words that I said today, but the desire of seeing you again will not change, I know it.
Please show me the path I should go! Please lead my way to find out the truth! Please be with me and give me peace! And please always be the one who loves me the most and also the one who I love the most!
