05 Dec 08... Received..

Wt the hell's going on with me and around me?!??
Being in anaesthesia...??!??

A serious problem came!! to others could be a shock, crazy, disappointed but how did I actually reacted?? soullessly!
Why? I dun noe?!? and can't know??!??

just a think...May be, I've been prepared for that damn trouble!! How long? really long, so long!!
yes, prepared! Although it's unexpected, but It has to happen,sooner or later!
yes, just the problem "sooner or later", coz that's never been in short-term... I dun know and dun remember exactly how long it's been happened.
Just know its quite long and has been hidden for a long time!
as long as I could grow callouses on my mind!!
Actually...
When informed, I know that could not be hidden anymore, It's the boom awake after sleeping years!! And it's the time everything has to be uncovered! For a new start that could be better for all of us!!
And actually...
It's not me who can make decision, coz it's not depend on me although it's related to me a lot!! It belongs to their life! It belongs to them! It's their life and they, just they have rights to make decisions, to choose wt's next!! I just the witness!! In game, It's called third-person-view...

Wt to do now is waiting for it and see how it'll actually run!!!

feelingless...