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 i have a lot of friends but it's really hard to have a close friend. However,  whatever i give them, it's from my true feeling but now i wonder what i recieve, i know the GIVE and TAKE rule, i dont want to lose any friend, i think a lot and it's really hurt when smiling during day and crying at night.. I force myself to forgive but it's hard, it's deep in my soul. How can i forget? what did i do wrong? i dont wanna show my feeling front of people. Now everything's gone, but it leave a big hole, hopefully time will clear them and i can be back to a happy girl.